11/22 - A Bad Day.

Today I had a bad day.

I thought I was going to get up at 7, work out to wake up, eat a good breakfast and go to class awake. But I got up at 8, didn't eat much, and half slept through Jazz Records.

My friend reminded me of the Music History paper that I had forgotten to do, due last night... oops.

We had a quiz in Aural Skills that I completely forgot about, so I b.s.ed it and did okay. But it wasn't fun disappointing my teacher.

I caught a break in Percussion Methods, and Paul Rennick came in and talked about marching percussion, which was really informative and he's a pretty nice dude.

But then I didn't have Singers, which was kind of a bummer. So I went to practice, and I memorized the little etudes I had to memorize. All was for naught, but I'll get to that eventually.

Watched Family Guy and American Dad, but they were kinda disappointing. I can't remember why.

Checked the mail. Got a good letter :)

And then I went to practice more before my lesson, but all of the marimbas were taken, so I just played my music on piano.

At my lesson, I made it through an etude without being to heavily criticized, but halfway through the second one I lost my place and Jake started fixing my technique, again. I can't understand why it isn't sticking, but it's not, and it's frustrating. We barely made it through that etude and didn't really accomplish anything in 35 minutes, 5 minutes too many.

But I did cuss a few times and act really unprofessionally, which he said I shouldn't do, even though he wasn't a professor. It wasn't respectful, and I didn't know what I was doing and I was a disappointment all around.

Didn't eat dinner, didn't feel like it. Went to a good concert but I couldn't find it in me to ask Mark Ford for some technique help. And now I'm just moping.

If I could have a week where I could commit to just focusing on mallet technique, I would definitely use it. But I can't do that. I'm away from a mallet instrument almost the rest of the week, and I have classes and family things to attend to, and other homework to do, and things to study for and sleep to get, maybe.

And, on top of that, I don't know that I could make myself practice the whole time. I can barely get myself to the gym for a half an hour every day. I don't practice every day, and it's not that I have better things to do; I sit around at watch a lot of Hulu and spend way too much time on Facebook and generally do a lot of nothing. I wish I could fix my work ethic. It'll take some time.

M